Starting my own company is hard - and as it might be apparent to see, it takes a lot of time to build it up to where I would like it to be. My continuous goal is to become and to have Mercurie become an innovator, a leader in the community to help promote not only my own artistic ideas and writings, but also the art, performances, and creativity of others.
I'm learning how to do this on my own. I am working on doing this at the same time as having a full time job and navigating our theater community as an individual. I guess there is a part of me that feels like I need to apologize for not being as dedicated to Mercurie as I want to be. It's this weird piece of myself that also complicates so many things - for example writing a blog. I would be lying if I didn't say that I had planned and started about 8 different blog posts between the last one that was published and this one.
Validation and perfectionism are two... ailments? conditions?... I'm not sure what the right word is for it, but two things that I know I personally struggle with, especially with deciding to even start Mercurie Studios. I try to be right. I like to do things correctly. This has aided me well in a lot of ways, like making sure the business was registered and the taxes were filed, because it does make me very thorough, but in other ways it stifles me. It prolongs the process to where doubt can creep in. I have so many big plans that I want to get moving, but to start them, to not just have them on paper? That's a big step.
But despite all that fear or nervousness, there was also a part of me that truly believes that I was supposed to do this. My desire of needing something of my own in this community as a hub to promote and create and spread the arts was a developing dream of mine for many years before I started the company. I remember thinking about it as a whole other entity over six years ago and calling it Art Cloud Studios (turns out that the name was already taken). I wonder and write this post guessing that I am not the only one who feels this kind of way with launching a new project or putting one's self onstage. it's like that old saying "What great things would you accomplish if you knew you could not fail?"
My question is this: has fear ever stopped you from pursuing your goals? Or has the nerves to do or be perfect ever made you either not start a project or prolong the start of a project entirely? I want to hear how you've overcome that, or if you didn't, what was your project?
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